Melbourne, 30.07.2024

Trying hard for days will eventually lead me to a day of "breaking". I normally sleep at around 9 to 10pm, and wake up at 5 to 6am, having breakfast, studying, then going to school. This morning was a bit different. I woke up, and just sat on the table and ate my breakfast for hours, and not doing anything else. I felt “broken”, everything, the future, my study path, are unclear and seem so far away from me. Too many things to study, too much knowledge to catch up, too much missing information from outside sources that I haven’t touched, the feeling of hopelessness covered me. I did not want to do anything, I did not feel like going to school, there were tons of things waiting for me to work on… but, after a while, I took a deep breath, I changed my clothes, and headed up to university. I understand my girl so well. This girl has never surrendered to anything. Even if the clouds covered her path, she still walked, slow but never stopped.